Thursday, February 9, 2012

i am marci

i have never had a song see right through me the way this one does.
sharing the lyrics.
they are not for the faint of heart.
don't say i didn't warn you.
i will say that my blog is here to show the imperfections of life and a few perfections that pop by sometimes.
i am not always happy.
i curse.
i scream.
i cry in the dark.
i am imperfect.
i will always love my imperfect kids too.

"A Better Son / Daughter"

Sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs i know i can't breath
And hope someone will help me this time
Your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you're on you're really f**king on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems f**king cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be be better you'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest you'll be brave
You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I haven't listened to this song for a looooong time. It was my theme song for 2008.

Unknown said...

Unknown is Molly..BTW.

lookbothways said...

Molly could never have handled the sick and dying. She passes out. Marci, Molly and of course Nicole you are all good enough and dogoneit I like you.I would like to see what song Kyle picks out. My song is when Guinevere is singing a prayer to her favorite saint, Saint Genivive. She's says she won't obey anymore. That's me.

wishing on the moon